| OMG!! IM STILL ALIVE!!! |
[Jan. 11th, 2009|12:42 am] |
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LOL hey there yall im still alive as the subject line clearly stats. so yeah recked my truck just befor graduation last year, fun stuff there. i stayed up to late for like a week or more and just ran my selff in to the ground... well kind of a enbankment of sotrs lol 1 im alive and i didnt get hurt at all. 2 trucks totaled 3 IM ALIVE!!. so yeah i got a new truck now its a 91 toyota 4x4 im loven it. iv been getting more sleep for sure lol
DUDE!! I GRADUATED!! which is cool i guess
iv been working and trying to save money but my truck conspires against me things keep needing fixed on it, and now some thing i thought they fixed is not fixed again, its making a horible noise which only stops if i hit a bump in the road of hit the brakes hard, i think the wheel bearing is going out that just got fixed so i a bit pissed about that.
but on a happy note im in a relationship with a beautiful girl, things are going good, we have our moments where we get upset with each other but we dont give up so id say thats good.
so yeah thats kinda a quicki on whats been up with me |
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| HEY!!!! so lets see how many people even will notice if i make a post!! |
[Nov. 25th, 2007|12:19 am] |
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| | indifferent | ] |
well iv been less then poetic recently witch sucks, and i miss my homeys from Lapine!!
hmmmm been a long time sins i posted on here so lets review me as of this year, iv had two girl friends this year and neither of witch i asked or was initially interested in, first one broke up with me after a week didn't mind a bit cuz she was a bit of a ditz. she actually wrote me a note to tell me. second girl was a freshman and shes smart pretty and she has some problems with a relationship apparently cuz she broke up with me after about a month i think. she stopped paying attention to me at all after about a week or two... maybe we went out for close to two months.... eh anyways we broke up on good terms and she told me face to face. As it stands im single, any takers? im 18, black hair, 220 pounds, strong big build, i enjoy cuddling and spending time with people. going once going twice..... still single! and for those who know me and care who i like, i think i never stopped liking the girl i went out with last year, Cassie, im still friends with her and im incapable of being unhappy when im around her... that or i dont rely know who i like...
ironically last time i posted i had a cold.... and this time i have a cold.... lol pattern!
hmmm lets see.... i got new subs in my truck so now you can hear my sound system from a little ways away lol, i can set off car alarms while i drive by, and i don't even have a good amp yet >=D i have one on the way though >=D
and id like to state again that i miss my friends that are in Lapine!! i wish i could see them!!
i think thats all for now ^__^
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| ahh another fun day |
[Mar. 20th, 2007|11:43 pm] |
well today i woke up at 1:30, i coughed my ass off all day hocked up plenty of flem and nasty crap out of my chest. my back hurts like hell every time i cough, with luckily for me is allot, oh yay for coughing. iv missed 2 days of school probably going to be 3 day or more, cuz i feel like shit, and i dont want to be in school so its a good damn reason. well thats inuff its late and im sick and tired of being sick and tired, as Asthka put it =D |
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| i neglect this far to much |
[Mar. 19th, 2007|10:49 pm] |
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well lets see im single, and i have a cold at the moment witch makes me cough and hack nasty things out of my chest. well iv been single for awhile now, at least this time it was face to face, some reason made it better, but it hasnt been to hard on me becuz she used the words lets take a brake, and if my memory isnt failing the was a i would like to be with you just not now. well im coughing and im up late and some one will wake up and ill be in truble so im going to go now |
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| WOW!!!!! |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|12:41 am] |
its been awhile...... hi!!
^___^ so yah lets see where did i leave off with life..... oh wow that was way back there wasnt it.... well i went down to lapine to hang with a friend for her bday... then i found out a difrent girl i liked didnt like me ither, that didnt bother me to much though, dont know why though *shrugs*...hmm.. well to make a long story short i have a girl friend now, we have been going out for like 2 months now. so yah not much more then that. later |
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| okay, so im stupid shoot me |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|05:31 pm] |
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okay yah the last entry was stupid.
im in better spearets now ^__^ i was what you would call happy... then i got a cold and im all *bleh*
other then that, i think i know who i like now! ^__^ bifor i was kined of just confused and i wasnt shure if i liked anyone. but know i know i like some one ^_^ so yah you dont get to know =P ask i might tell you lol
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| every one ignore the stupid emo poet |
[Sep. 8th, 2006|10:21 pm] |
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| |  not happy | ] |
hi so iv got a deviantart page http://soultaker39.deviantart.com/
there it is so read all my crap.
okay, well....... i just feel like venting my emotinal shit.
so today i hung out with kim, anna, josh, bryan fine, and zack. well josh and anna where having there little drama talk alone so they went for a walk, bryan and zack whent some place, kim and i walked with casy across the bridg. casy left, kim and i walked back across the bridge. i asked her when prom was to get her talking about it to see if she had a date, she said she didnt, i asked if she wanted to go with me........ and no fucking suprise no. well i think im fucked in life, im short im fat and im just not what anyone would call good lookin. kim and i walked to rays and found every one there, josh, bryan and zack left, and went home. i was hanging out till kim and annas ride got there. anna asked "who do you like" i said "....." nothing! cuz i have no fucking answer to that question, im sitting next to kim and anna, i think i like kim but then i know she dosnt feel the same way, cuz shes told me her type and im not it, cuz im just barly shorter then her. im thinking my damnation is to be alone. i dont know who i like, i just cant explain it.... its like the camras just not in focus. i just dont know what im doing, why cant some one just tell me they like me and i can stop thinking about all of this. its tearing my mined in all sorts of directions. thoughts of sitting alone with no one to talk to.
so yah thats just whats on my mind right now.... so yah, you all have fun
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| holy mufins from hell!!!! |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|11:19 pm] |
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anyone still read this? probly not cuz you all think im dead and stuff, but im not!! cuz im posting right now! i just forget to post on here now, cuz i have my da page and i forget about this one cuz i have work and im tierd and stuff and i dont post on here so yah, im sorry! and later have fun but later yah im going to bed or some thing
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| odd..... |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|11:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | hell? | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | stupid? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | trapt - headstrong | ] |
i fined this to be odd, iv got to a point where im what we will call "happy", dont know if thats realy what it is or if ist just a point of ignoring what i feel. but anyways, the odd thing is that im "happy" and i dont like it.
id rather be somewhat sad, so i can write, vent, EXPRESS myself. when ever i write a poem, it comes up from my soul, then my mined dicides what things to put down, iv writen some poems not fit for releas. but there all what i feel or was thinking about, and im so frustrated right now. i just want to write some thing!!! but i cant..... grr! i cant stand this, i just want to write, but i have nothing to write, not even a word *sigh* i even tryed thinking about where i am in my life and what i should do (about the girl i think i like) yah im still not shure! if you had done what i did bifor you might think about this a bit more. and for those of you who dont know, the first time my ex broke up with me, i pored my soul out to her, and she took me back. i had shown my true feelings and then cuple weeks later my true feelings being known and how i felt was obevous, but she still just riped out my heart, and walked off kicking it as she left.
wow.... i have no clue what im writing or why, i guess i felt i needed to put some thing up hear, and as i started my mined got away with my finegers and started this rant.... *sigh* im so bord, this is all pointless.
know some thing elss thats odd?
i can listen music that most sain ppl that listen to it get dipresd, i can listen to it and feel happyer then i was, i took a clip out of the song "right now" by Korn, "...I'm feeling cold today Not hurt just Fucked away I'm devastated and frustrated God I feel so bound So why'd I feel the need? I think it's time to bleed I'm gonna cut myself and watch the blood hit the ground...."
i listend to that exact clip for 3 houres, felt just dandy, im not kidding, i felt better then i did bifor i started listening to it. am a weird or are there a lot of ppl that can do that?
well i guess iv wasted inuff of your time for the momment
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| its 11:41pm do you know where you brain is? |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|11:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated - i want to write!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | death cab for cutie - soule meets body | ] |
lol im realy bord now, i dont know y.
i have no clue what im doing up right now, i have to get up at 6 to get ready for school. oh well i guess im trying to wear my selff down so ill start thinking about stuff so i can write. dont ask im weird like that. well it dosnt apear to be working i think ill just go to bed. I REALY WANT TO WRITE SOME THING GOOD AGAIN!! grr its anoying havning writon some good stuff then to just go dry in a day, its so grr. well i guess thats it, talk to you all later
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| ehh, im still alive |
[Feb. 9th, 2006|10:43 pm] |
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| | ehh who cares? | ] |
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| | system of a down - chop suey! | ] |
ever have one of those days where you just dont see the point in anything?
i get up i do the same thing every dam day, whats the point? is there a point?
probly now where just ment to do the same thing over and over again cuz lifes a bitch. see im in one of those moods where every thing just sucks, cuz it dose.
ehh in like 5 min ill like hate what iv wrote in this, but what ever thats life.
so im bord im going to take my lazy ass out side listen to my emo playlist and freez. have fun yall!
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| sooooo lets see |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|10:54 pm] |
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| |  odd or normal?? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | foo fighters - all my life | ] |
im so Fin bord right now..... its like 11:04pm....
im listening to a playlist i made when i was in 8th grade i think or the summer affter, what ever its good stuff. so lets see.... my computer for once is all messed up, dont ask. its a quike route to me being mad again.
i got to drive my truck today, i had fun, its a litle harder to drive cuz know its not idleing so high, the temp guage was fix (dam i liked the high idle).
so i went up with my grandmother, cuz my mom rode her bike to work and couldnt take me. i just get to drive where ever i like in newport, its kined of fun.
i saw my ex-gf walkin around up there, she has dance and stuff, i like drove past her twice and i dont think she ever noticed me, sall good though i dont realy care. i didnt have any stupid drivers around me today, thank god. i did allmost run a stop sign thats in the oddest place. well thats about all the fun stuff i did, and i like did school but that was boring as hell, soooo thats it i guess...
its like 11:15pm now
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| wow..... again! |
[Feb. 4th, 2006|10:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stuff, emo or punk rock | ] |
long time no update!!!
soo lets see..... ah ok heres a good done for you!
friday feb. 3rd, 06... i go to school blah blah blah....
end of school, im wating for my mom to come get me so i can go see how the shop was doing fixing my truck. when she gets there, SHES DRIVING MY TRUCK!! eh oh well... cant be helped. so my uncel owns a car place, and my cuzin works in the shop part, he fixed my truck and all, and as a gift he put in a cd player!! wich my truck was laking to begin with. so yah i got it back, i drove to newport and all, my mom did some stuff up there. on the way home i was driving my truck, so im driving along and i trun on to my x-girlfriends road, its about 6ish, dark and stuff. i get out i have the book she let me barow when we where going out back then. so i go to the door, i knock, she comes up to the door. she opens it, in a quite voice she says "hi". i say nothing, i hold out the book, she takes it from my hand. i look in her face, then her eyes... i dont see why she calsed me so much greef when she broke up with me. i saw a wast of time, a wast of love, i never got anyfrom her, i only gave it. so anyways, she says "thank you" and starts closing the door, and says "good bye". the only thing i said to her was "bye". final ever lasting never to think of her again, never to see hear or want again! im done to the end the road she led me on is over i want nothing to do with it anymore.
other then that its been normal, go to school come home sleep, repeat. oh well... its life what can i do...
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| im so freaking bord!!! |
[Jan. 19th, 2006|09:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | modist mouse - float on | ] |
i have like 7 ppl on msn online but not one of em is talkin to me ^___^ im loved lol!!!
oh well ets life.
i just feel like complaining, i dont realy care.
now there all getting off, it is 9:49pm so i cant blame them.
i realy should... but i dont know y i dont.... ehhhh
life is so boring, wow... i found a anime show on tv... but it sucks... its not a veary happy one, its kined of a downer. well its good but it is a downer.
ahh well i guess i should just go to bed... 9:53pm now... well i guess iv blown inuff time trying to write some thing worth reading but iv faild in that. oh well...
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| .... wow.... whatsup? |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|03:39 am] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | stuff | ] |
long time sins iv posted on here i guess....
well...
i feel like talking
i think im over my x she is nothing to me now... i think...
im still not shure of a lot of things in my life
i think i like a girl but i dont trust my heart right now
i dont want to just jump in to anything right now
jumping in to some thing would probly just make my life more confusing
and thats the last thing i need, my mined is a maze with no exit
i can look at her picture and i dont feel like crying
i know she wasnt true to me, she said we can still be friends
well im left without a friend to so she can shove it
i shure im done with thinking of her
but im still not shure about my selff
im inscure now, im not shure of what to do, but i have good friends ^__^
they know who they are, they have stood by me this far.
well yah... so... im still confused about what is going on in my head.
whatever, one way for me to look at this, she is more alone then me, i get to see ppl more often then she dose, i have more time to goof off, its her loss! what the hell do i feel so bad for! my time is all myn now! y the hell didnt i see this sooner! rofl its late this probly just sounds weird or mean or some thing, but i dont care. she dumped me, her loss ill move on. i have lots of ppl to hang out with. rofl... i so should of thought of this!! i may of loved her but she stabed my heat and it shattered now she is alone, and i will just hang out with friends!!! omg i will move on so much faster now ^__^
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| just cuz i should update im going to |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|02:00 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | papa roach | ] |
ok iv not done much, iv sat around wrote some poems and thats about it. my head isnt on quite all the way yet so nothing makes anysens to me. so yah my life is prity fun right now.
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| well i feel... odd |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|07:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | many good bands if u want a list email me. | ] |
its odd i loved so much and now it dosnt even come to my mined... i dont think about it i might even be more happy, its like nothing ever happend allmost the membores r there but the pain isnt... the sad thoughts dont even come or leave they have died away... i have been blessed with a free pass to go on with life with out thought of the pain and sarow that should be myn to have, some of that might be contridikting but ohh well, i dont know what im typing its kined of just coming out like it has been i kined of like this, im never one to just wright from soul, i normaly wright from the mined, and that is hard.
i tryed to talk to her again just to be nice but i dont think it worked to good, hi, how r u, good, good, and that was prity much it.
im trying to get out more so im not on my computer so much, i dont do sports or anything so i have to try and fined a reson to leave my house, theres nothing to do where i live i like a good deal out side of town. im going to start going to a group thing called young life, so yah that will be good. so yah i think thats about it. hmmmmmm
i think im done, when i have more things that must come out i will post them.
i love all my readers, i love u more if u leave comments (chib and Amanda)
so yeah...
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| and it happend again... |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|08:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | rejected | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stuff i dont know i dont care | ] |
she has broke up with me, i felt this one coming for a week, we have been talking less and less, slowly drifting apart, it dosnt hurt when u know its coming. i still feel some thing though, feels like my heart is gone and there is a voied in my chest where it should be. when i love i lose when i dont love i dont have a chanse to win... this is like the lotery. u might win, but the odds r slim, theres no telling if u will or not. its just one big gambel, u got to play to win, but if u play and louse u get hurt...
well i guess im just trying to get some of this out of my head and heart, not many ppl probly care about me and my life problems, only ppl that know me.
ok yah what ever i dont know wtf im going to do... i guess ill just mope around.
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| yay!!! |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|09:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the juice to make it happen - Half Full or Half Empty | ] |
SHE HAS TAKEN ME BACK!!!!
she sorted out her feelings and said her heart said to stay with me, so she will!!
im so happy!!!
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| hmmmm |
[Nov. 24th, 2005|11:48 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | music uv never heard of, localband, i think lol | ] |
she did it out of confushon of feelings iv talked to her, she says she dosnt want to louse me like she lost her dad, her dad died when she was young. she is going to think about it for some time and i may or maynot louse her.
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